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Went to the beach today, waded in the water and picked up pretty rocks, and now we're home and exhausted and Light's asleep on the couch already and I'm feeling oversunned (but blessedly not sunburnt).

I continue to feel poised on the brink of something, and part of it is that in three weeks, I'll have been in Somerville for a year, and I've told myself a hundred times that this is the lost year, and that I oughtn't beat myself up for it, but by that standard that means self-flagellation is just around the corner, and I bore myself with my own dread so I imagine that it's a fairly uninteresting topic of conversation for everyone else.

( want, want, want )

(no subject)

Went to the beach today, waded in the water and picked up pretty rocks, and now we're home and exhausted and Light's asleep on the couch already and I'm feeling oversunned (but blessedly not sunburnt).

I continue to feel poised on the brink of something, and part of it is that in three weeks, I'll have been in Somerville for a year, and I've told myself a hundred times that this is the lost year, and that I oughtn't beat myself up for it, but by that standard that means self-flagellation is just around the corner, and I bore myself with my own dread so I imagine that it's a fairly uninteresting topic of conversation for everyone else.

( want, want, want )