
a little bit of emotional break tonight.
in the sense of crying until i actually couldn't really see because my eyes were too swollen.
i'm not exactly sure what it was about, maybe a little bit lonely, a little bit conflicted about light's job offer, a little annoyed at work, all balled up into hysteria. eventally calmed myself down, mostly because everyone i wanted to talk logged off. went out, ate at spoleto's express (i was that girl with the extralong scarf reading while i ate. the mystique's a little bit lost when you dip your sleeve in the alfredo) tried to buy light a present, then wandered around for a while. ended at B&N, and bought light a different present, chile a birthday card, and myself some Harney and Sons tea. came home, cleaned a little, and still feel disoriented, afraid that i'm going to wake up tomorrow and have somehow backslid five years into a place a lot less okay than this one. i know it's not likely, but my eyes and my throat still hurt and i don't want to go to sleep.
at least funnyface is really cuddly.