"let's start at the beginning again"
Dec. 28th, 2016 05:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
omnia_mutanturOnce again, I feel like I'm wasting my union week. (Working for the Beast means I get the week between Christmas and New Years off).
Monday everyone was home, and then Abundance left for his parents in the evening. Tuesday I cleaned most of the things, napped, went to therapy, and then cleaned some more. Today, I went and babysat for my nephew Tank, then came home and dozed fitfully for a while, tomorrow I go to my other little brother's and babysit his two kids, Friday hopefully Delight and I spend a day baking.
I'm not sure what I think I should be doing, only that I feel like it should be a capital letter Accomplishment, something lifechanging, something I put off during the year because I don't have time for it. Or at least I should be cooking and baking.
on the other hand, if I remember to try to say the things to myself that I would say to other people, maybe the reason I'm taking this downtime is that I need this downtime. Or I just could be lazy and undermotivated and making excuses for myself. (I haven't gone to the gym in two weeks because I sprained my knee, but it almost doesn't hurt now so I totally should stop resting it, right?)
Other weighty thoughts include by what criteria do I include/organize short fiction on my year-end books-I-read list. I suspect I'm going to exclude them altogether, but options are being weighed.
Monday everyone was home, and then Abundance left for his parents in the evening. Tuesday I cleaned most of the things, napped, went to therapy, and then cleaned some more. Today, I went and babysat for my nephew Tank, then came home and dozed fitfully for a while, tomorrow I go to my other little brother's and babysit his two kids, Friday hopefully Delight and I spend a day baking.
I'm not sure what I think I should be doing, only that I feel like it should be a capital letter Accomplishment, something lifechanging, something I put off during the year because I don't have time for it. Or at least I should be cooking and baking.
on the other hand, if I remember to try to say the things to myself that I would say to other people, maybe the reason I'm taking this downtime is that I need this downtime. Or I just could be lazy and undermotivated and making excuses for myself. (I haven't gone to the gym in two weeks because I sprained my knee, but it almost doesn't hurt now so I totally should stop resting it, right?)
Other weighty thoughts include by what criteria do I include/organize short fiction on my year-end books-I-read list. I suspect I'm going to exclude them altogether, but options are being weighed.
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Date: 2016-12-30 02:06 pm (UTC)It's part of the reason I keep the project jar now, so I can draw something and work on it, if I feel like I need the enjoyment of executing a task, but want something different from normal domestic maintenance.
But I also get satisfaction from downtime that would be considered "unproductive", too. And naps. Naps are good.
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