"We were never good fighters or very good soldiers"

[omnia_mutantur]

Oh, internets, how sad you occasionally make me.

I am totally and completely aware that a) not everyone on my friends list reads lj all the time and b) many people know that I don't actually use my phone much. Sadly, my intellectual knowledge doesn't keep me from being a little bit disheartened by the very small response to a plea for phone numbers. I feel like I'm mere moments away from posting something flat out begging for people to say nice things to me. (this post is not that, but as per usual, nice things will always be accepted.)

I met with a tattoo artist, gave him borage pictures, and have a tentative appointment to get a tattoo in a couple Tuesdays. (roughly this size and shape, black and white, three flowers strung together on the outside of my left leg) I have to reschedule, since Light would like to be along (and I need to check to see if Chile also wants to make a date of it), but I'm hoping that this will in fact manifest (however psychosomatically) some of the much needed courage the impending move will require. Ligh's meeting with the CEO of one company today, and the CTO of another next week, and we're both edging so very, very carefully around exhibiting anything that looks like hope, for fear of jinxing ourselves.

Light's sad because we got to Outland in WoW and I'm not liking it all that much. I'm not sure if it's all the dying, or because there's currently not much use for my favorite parts of the game (gathering), or because I absolutely sucked at the flying bomb run. I don't want to disappoint him, but I feel like I kind of am, and it's such a weird, weird thing to feel.

I got to see Mech on Monday, and talk to him about employment, and eat strange Australian cookies and play Set and that was all awesome, and I got to see Junkyard and eat greek food. But, oh for the sake of all anyone holds holy, I want to know what's going to happen next and an inkling of how I'm going to react. And while I'm at it, I want to be calmer about my social life, being unemployed, and my physical appearance. And a pony, or possibly a puppy. But for now, I'll cuddle with cats, do some dishes and finally start reading the latest Harry Potter.

Comments

[harlenna.livejournal.com]

i would have posted my number, but there's that fear that you dont' actually want it, and that our friendship wont ever extend beyond these typed borders, and that i should not test that.

that's my reasoning anyway.

[tisana.livejournal.com]

I did read that, but I thought, first: "Oh, that's why she didn't call me back after the voicemail I left on the weekend!" ...then... "Well, I don't really trust LJ's screening, maybe I'll just send it in an email."
Then, of course, forgot.

[omnia-mutantur.livejournal.com]

You called? I'm torn between neat! (you called) and dammit! (I missed it.) Sorry I didn't get back to you.

[plumerai.livejournal.com]

Nice and true thing: You seem like a very interesting person, and though I don't frequently comment, I do read. In any case, I just gosh darn like you. Sorry for not being more creative on this tip--just sharing my plain old thoughts!

[norda.livejournal.com]

My dear, I didn't answer the phone question because right now I don't have a phone in the house that isn't being tied up for "waiting for someone to offer Michael a job" use or "taking calls for the mail order and distribution business so we don't lose the house" use.

I don't have a cellphone.

If I did, though, I'd happily give you the number.

[omnia-mutantur.livejournal.com]

Aww, thanks. In hindsight, I realize I probably fussed over something silly, but thank you for the reassurance.

[norda.livejournal.com]

It's quite all right. As seen in my emo post with the sad kitty eyes, it's hard to be home all day with many many things to do and no motivation to do them.

While unemployment can seem like freedom, it doesn't give the structure that some of us need to feel fulfilled. So I can see why you'd need some reassurance.

Me, I'm not unemployed... I'm "not employed by others". That, too, though, unless I impose structure, can often leave me feeling at loose ends, so I can relate to what you're going through.

[electrolite37.livejournal.com]

I am ascared of the phone and rarely talk to any friend on it (with the exception of AK, but he tends to be the exception to most things). But writing is not scary and still awesome.

[omnia-mutantur.livejournal.com]

Postcards are awesome and the phone is very, very scary.

Are you a friend or foe of IM?

[cataptromancer.livejournal.com]

Wait, which email address do we send this to? I tried omnia_mutantur@livejournal.com and it gave me an error message?

[omnia-mutantur.livejournal.com]

I forgot I let my paid lj lapse. trying omniamutantur at gmail, instead.

[grackles.livejournal.com]

You might not want to judge too quickly, livejournal is malfunctioning and lots of people haven't been seeing their entire flist. That being said, I personally don't answer my phone. Dialup always has it blocked if Krypt or I are awake. I MAKE phone calls though, so if you want to e-mail me your number or something I can call. Just let me know appropriate times. It might be awkward though, I'm kinda weird.

Sorry when we talked on IM the other day I didn't have much to say. I was zonked and inadvertently ignored you. :( I do that a lot to people, it wasn't personal. Sometimes I wander away from the computer and forget I was even having a conversation! It makes me feel extra smart.

[grackles.livejournal.com]

I do have a cell phone but I can't talk on it when I'm at my house, the reception is too bad because I live in the middle of nowhere. Lame, huh? I thought I would be set once I bought one and wouldn't miss any more calls. :(

[lilithchilde.livejournal.com]

I must have missed the plea you mention, hon. Shall email you my number, if you give me your email address (as I've just realized I only ever had your work address).

[lilithchilde.livejournal.com]

And I see the answer above, so nevermind, I'll get on that right now. ^^

[cihuateteo.livejournal.com]

I posted my numbers, mon cher - i know i did...
Did you get them?

[omnia-mutantur.livejournal.com]

I did, I did. You rock.

[shebear.livejournal.com]

I missed that. Will go back and reply. In a bit -- I'm at work.

[notwolf.livejournal.com]

i read.

[omnia-mutantur.livejournal.com]

Wow. I find this wicked flattering.

I read too.

[epicurean-envoy.livejournal.com]

Still love you lots!

[omnia-mutantur.livejournal.com]

So glad to see you posting, even w-less.