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Mar. 2nd, 2007 05:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
omnia_mutanturoh so, so very lucky to have Chile in my life.
I just got a blast-from-the-past email which, on the surface seems pleasant enough, but all the underlying things are making me simultaneously shake, have to fight off tears, want to vomit, and crave both a cigarette and a drink in the Worst Possible Way.
And, if it weren't for Chile, I'd have convinced myself I was just overreacting, imagining, or deserved to be the recipient of that sort of letter. As it stands, a quick forward command and lo! i am reassured. Still shaken as hell, but at least I can turn my attention to cleaning the house for the lovely people who will be showing up shortly, and hopefully soon I will wipe this from my memory. (yeah right, I know).
I'm wearing a comforting t-shirt, my husband's in the shower, my cats know something's wrong and are being extra cute and my life is good. Now I just need my fine motor skills back and everything will be fine.
Fuck this noise, I tell you.
I just got a blast-from-the-past email which, on the surface seems pleasant enough, but all the underlying things are making me simultaneously shake, have to fight off tears, want to vomit, and crave both a cigarette and a drink in the Worst Possible Way.
And, if it weren't for Chile, I'd have convinced myself I was just overreacting, imagining, or deserved to be the recipient of that sort of letter. As it stands, a quick forward command and lo! i am reassured. Still shaken as hell, but at least I can turn my attention to cleaning the house for the lovely people who will be showing up shortly, and hopefully soon I will wipe this from my memory. (yeah right, I know).
I'm wearing a comforting t-shirt, my husband's in the shower, my cats know something's wrong and are being extra cute and my life is good. Now I just need my fine motor skills back and everything will be fine.
Fuck this noise, I tell you.
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Date: 2007-03-02 10:39 pm (UTC)First his doppelganger showed up at my coffee shop refuge, and then I saw his name on an e-mail list.
Do what you can to nest and don't beat yourself up if you can't shake it immediately.
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Date: 2007-03-02 11:57 pm (UTC)Hang in there Babe, lots of folks love you.
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Date: 2007-03-03 12:47 am (UTC)i'm wearing my comfy t-shirt (aka, His...), eating out of a box of "A taste of Thai" and having a glass of drinky stuff.
comfortably numb.
just think, you will have a wonderfully squeeky clean husband joining you soon!!!