"i'd say that's what i know of love"
Jan. 17th, 2005 03:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
omnia_mutanturi could detail all the issues, the unread books and doctor's appointment
loaded upon doctor's appointment, brakes gone bad, offense taken without
knowing if the one who has offended intended to do so, headaches and stomach
upsets, fear for friends' health and wellbeing, $50 presents from stingy
parents, but i think that this sentence is really all the validation and
energy i need to give that part of what's going on.
it's my birthday. and tonight i get to go out to dinner with lovely
people, and there's a fantastic featurette on resident evil: apocalypse that
proves ms mila to be absolutely nuts. and mech called to wish me happy
birthday, and light brought my batteries to work for me, and Wisp gave me
stickers and a b&n gift certificate and we made something last night that
called for at least six cans of beans and a quarter cup of grated ginger
that i quite enjoyed, even if the bread maker still befuddles me a little.
(I need to find some not-from-mix recipes for it, or better mixes). and
never see elektra, the suck to boobies ratio is high to the point of almost
negating said boobies, and what the suck doesn't take care of spoiling, the
sentimentality will. taking light to a library results in him finding
books he owns to read while he waits for me, because he doesn't know how to
look for books he'd want to read that he doesn't simply own and hasn't
gotten around to reading.
i'm pulling it together, bit by painstaking bit, learning what to let go and
what to clean up, trying to figure out what purpose therapy will serve now
that the immediate dangers have been muzzled, waiting for the day when i
won't be tired. i'm making plans to meet Sanguine face to face (and she
needs a new usename that indicates more of how precious she is, like
invaluable or platinum or maybe just the everpopular GirlBiscuit) and trying
not to let it inspire the body-insecurity that lingers under the surface.
and i'm surrounded by my toys at work, and contemplating bringing the hoops
in my ears to a grand total of nine.
spending a weekend alone with Light was amazing, thinking where i was with
him two years ago this day startling and sometimes i'm filled by this little
vindictive desire to call up all of his exes and singsong "nee-neer,
nee-neer" at them. we've come so far, so fast and done so well that it
regularly takes my breath away. and even if we create an anniversary out
of whole cloth, later in the year, i'll still probably think of this day as
the start of something, and we snuggle under the blanket he gave me on our
couch in our house surrounded by our cats, and he kisses my shoulder as we
fall asleep and it makes me shiver.
so sing me happy birthday, world, and shower me with kittens and fresh
mozzarella and good company, dammit, because if i don't get it as a gift,
i'm going to come wrest it from your grasp and make you giggle while i do
so.
loaded upon doctor's appointment, brakes gone bad, offense taken without
knowing if the one who has offended intended to do so, headaches and stomach
upsets, fear for friends' health and wellbeing, $50 presents from stingy
parents, but i think that this sentence is really all the validation and
energy i need to give that part of what's going on.
it's my birthday. and tonight i get to go out to dinner with lovely
people, and there's a fantastic featurette on resident evil: apocalypse that
proves ms mila to be absolutely nuts. and mech called to wish me happy
birthday, and light brought my batteries to work for me, and Wisp gave me
stickers and a b&n gift certificate and we made something last night that
called for at least six cans of beans and a quarter cup of grated ginger
that i quite enjoyed, even if the bread maker still befuddles me a little.
(I need to find some not-from-mix recipes for it, or better mixes). and
never see elektra, the suck to boobies ratio is high to the point of almost
negating said boobies, and what the suck doesn't take care of spoiling, the
sentimentality will. taking light to a library results in him finding
books he owns to read while he waits for me, because he doesn't know how to
look for books he'd want to read that he doesn't simply own and hasn't
gotten around to reading.
i'm pulling it together, bit by painstaking bit, learning what to let go and
what to clean up, trying to figure out what purpose therapy will serve now
that the immediate dangers have been muzzled, waiting for the day when i
won't be tired. i'm making plans to meet Sanguine face to face (and she
needs a new usename that indicates more of how precious she is, like
invaluable or platinum or maybe just the everpopular GirlBiscuit) and trying
not to let it inspire the body-insecurity that lingers under the surface.
and i'm surrounded by my toys at work, and contemplating bringing the hoops
in my ears to a grand total of nine.
spending a weekend alone with Light was amazing, thinking where i was with
him two years ago this day startling and sometimes i'm filled by this little
vindictive desire to call up all of his exes and singsong "nee-neer,
nee-neer" at them. we've come so far, so fast and done so well that it
regularly takes my breath away. and even if we create an anniversary out
of whole cloth, later in the year, i'll still probably think of this day as
the start of something, and we snuggle under the blanket he gave me on our
couch in our house surrounded by our cats, and he kisses my shoulder as we
fall asleep and it makes me shiver.
so sing me happy birthday, world, and shower me with kittens and fresh
mozzarella and good company, dammit, because if i don't get it as a gift,
i'm going to come wrest it from your grasp and make you giggle while i do
so.
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Date: 2005-01-17 08:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-17 08:58 pm (UTC)Love.
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Date: 2005-01-17 09:37 pm (UTC)the world is truly a better place because of you. your parents (and some specific others) certainly don't deserve you, but I am extremely glad they had you.
Thank you for everything. I just wish I could be there to help celebrate you with you.
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Date: 2005-01-17 09:37 pm (UTC)Happy Birthday!
Date: 2005-01-18 03:09 am (UTC)I hope it has been everything you wanted it to be.
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Date: 2005-01-18 03:12 am (UTC)HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR OM-NI-A!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
http://images.google.com/images?q=kittens&hl=en&btnG=Google+Search
and, http://homecooking.about.com/library/weekly/aa110402a.htm
and i'm sorry i can't really do anything about the good company... but, we'll be all settled in down here in a few weeks, so you can come get some beach therapy!
*hugs*
Many Happy Returns of the Day!
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Date: 2005-01-18 04:24 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-24 07:38 pm (UTC)