omnia_mutantur | "better be a damn good year"

well, all the cool kids seem to be doing it, so i figured i might as well

but really, i just want to brag about where i've ended up

Lovelife: At the beginning of 2003, I was intermittently sleeping with a man i titled oxygen, a good friend, but that was it. i'd thought myself in love with him, but embarrassingly enough, i'm pretty sure that was rebounding from ex. said ex was causing a bit of trouble, including but not limited to repeated calls at work and harassing emails. i'd been corresponding with light, a man i'd met in 93, whose wife had recently moved out, and was developing something of a crush on him, and trying to convince myself it was just because he knew me, and because i was talking to him late at night, which is when i'm most vulnerable.

i met up light at a scifi con i was babysitting at, and pretty much everything changed at that moment and kept changing, as melodramatic as that sounds. i've learned why it's called falling in love, i've learned about all sort of clichés being cliches because they're true and merit repeating. i've learned it's possible not only to imagine a future, but to look forward to it happening. i've learned how to stand still. i've learned how to trust. (and i've learned there's a good chance i'm monogamous, which i'm still struggling to come to terms with)

Homelife: got rid of a roommate situation that was damn close to being abusive. and for all that Wary's understandable habit of never coming out of her room makes me nervous, i don't have panic attacks when i'm headed home anymore, she never yells, she doesn't spread rumors about me behind my back and in nine months, i plan on moving in with light, wherever we end up.

Career: got two promotions within a calendar year, and were it not for having an insane boss, could happy spend day in and day out puttering with computers at the hospital;. planning on giving it all up to follow light wherever he/we end(s) up going next, but for now, advancing under the steam of my own proven merit is kinda cool, and brings with it financial rewards that may end up paying my car loan off sooner. started a 403(b), and donating out of my paycheck, which is what i always hoped i'd do once i progressed sufficiently past hand-to-mouth living.

Family: still insane, but an aunt validated the insanity in front of Light and Atlantic's definitely going to grad school. my Tampa's been dead for over a year. my aunt and uncle assured me that they'd love me even if my parents had issues with me, which was wonderful to hear, and my father said unforgivable things to try and manipulate me into returning home, via bus, for xmas. i refused.

Health: gained weight, lost weight, gained it back, got my wisdom teeth out, dealt with the resultant facial numbness that i have to this day. most importantly, i stopped smoking, and by this friday, will have not had a cigarette for nine months. finally found a decent medication regime, which i'm planning on staying on, convinced myself to start taking supplements. found a fantastic therapist.

Resolutions:

the easy ones: live with light, do everything i can to make sure light and i continue to have a healthy relationship, do one interesting thing a month (ie Fetish Flea/Motion's bellydancing in January, vacation in DC in February), buy another bookcase, keep track of what i read, at least in my lj.

the hard ones: lose weight, continue not to smoke. try to take an extension course in medical coding/billing/etc. groom the long haired cat more often. learn to cook a few more dishes well. develop a better sleep schedule.

stay tuned, later i'll be posting about my post-xmas xmas.