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Nov. 9th, 2019 09:05 pmMade it to Baltimore, tattoo commences at noon tomorrow. That was a lot of car time though. I've done shockingly little traveling this year, which is unfortunate but understandable. I'm wondering if this is actually the first time this year I left New England, and I think it might be. This is, however, a delightful hotel room.
There's a queer textbased personals app for people looking for all sorts of connections and I've been trying to write something to trawl for pen pals, or whatever you call pen pals when they're adults. I ordered a ridiculous number of the shiny halloween stamps and am not afraid to use them.
I'm nervous about tomorrow, I'm always nervous about tattoos. Even when I love the artist, I still fret about how bad I am at having artistic vision or communicating what little I manage to summon. But Emi's done me well the past two times, and the brief I've given her was books, a candle, ferns and possibly a needle and thread. After all, we make our own magic, and maybe not only is this what I use to comfort me, but a sleeve about what might be used to summon me. There was a meme years and years back about what someone would use to summon you, or what you'd use to summon your friends and as per usual, I didn't play because I didn't want to not get an answer. These days, I'm more interested in summoning myself.
Delight's off on an adventure next week, which was going to net me some solo time with Spark, but I'm wondering how that's going to get curtailed by one of Spark's grandparents being around, and when Delight reminded me that the grandparent is a rarity and I never want to be a rarity, but it's also hard to feel like I should be around when someone who is a rarity is present. But, it's only been a few weeks of daycare and it's a major transition at a time with other major transitions, it's okay to feel like i don't know where to stand.
There's a queer textbased personals app for people looking for all sorts of connections and I've been trying to write something to trawl for pen pals, or whatever you call pen pals when they're adults. I ordered a ridiculous number of the shiny halloween stamps and am not afraid to use them.
I'm nervous about tomorrow, I'm always nervous about tattoos. Even when I love the artist, I still fret about how bad I am at having artistic vision or communicating what little I manage to summon. But Emi's done me well the past two times, and the brief I've given her was books, a candle, ferns and possibly a needle and thread. After all, we make our own magic, and maybe not only is this what I use to comfort me, but a sleeve about what might be used to summon me. There was a meme years and years back about what someone would use to summon you, or what you'd use to summon your friends and as per usual, I didn't play because I didn't want to not get an answer. These days, I'm more interested in summoning myself.
Delight's off on an adventure next week, which was going to net me some solo time with Spark, but I'm wondering how that's going to get curtailed by one of Spark's grandparents being around, and when Delight reminded me that the grandparent is a rarity and I never want to be a rarity, but it's also hard to feel like I should be around when someone who is a rarity is present. But, it's only been a few weeks of daycare and it's a major transition at a time with other major transitions, it's okay to feel like i don't know where to stand.
