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 Went to Waypoint for a lovely six year anniversary with Abundance dinner, then spent an hour peeling most of the reachable concert posters in our hallway down.  

Light leaves tomorrow for a weekend with his girlfriend at a kink con, returning late Sunday night.  Abundance leaves, probably some time Sunday, to drive down and spend a week with his parents as his mother tries to adjust to post-stroke life.   

There's also a chance Abundance will be in Prague when we move, so the plan of him taking Nonsense for a very long drive the day we move might be foiled.  But there are so many moving parts (okay, three.  Three moving parts. Contractor, painter and a moving company, it just feels like seventeen)

Delight looked happier than I've seen them in a while today and it was ridiculously energizing to see. 

I want to stay up all night playing soothing online jigsaw puzzles, to reassure myself my brain is still braining, even when I feel overwhelmed by email, esp. regarding conA, overwhelmed by packing, overwhelmed by change and overwhelmed by all my feelings about family/parents.  I don't know why pattern matching and sort makes me feel I've proven my functionality, I'm not sure where I draw the line between legitimate self-soothing and mindlessly avoiding all the things that might swamp me.

But I'm not, I'm not going to stay up.  I'm going to unseat the cat, take my pills, brush my teeth and crawl into bed.