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Today I feel weird and maudlin and can't pinpoint why. I need to get back to therapy.  I need to figure out more of these feelings. I need to go to the grocery store.  Weekends look busy and empty, and I feel undersocialized and stretched thin all at once. I'm using my grow-light, but I should get back to the gym more, but this cold weather saps all my momentum and I find myself curled up on a couch, playing on my computer and doing pretty much nothing. Out of sync with reading, though I keep coming across new lists of books and think that I want to read them all (I'm looking at you NPR). Nothing ever feels clean or done, and I turn 42 today. I want to buy jewelry and perfume and makeup I probably won't wear, I want to teach my dog to be okay with people coming over to the house, but I turn into a mess every time she does even when I know it's my job to be calm for her. (there are some downsides to having my id manifested as a 50lb brown dog)

Hi, how are you?