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"and if i learn to say your name"
Apr. 16th, 2014 05:15 pmI had no idea I had an old draft entry yet to post. It's four words long. "Sleepy, happy, scared, conflicted." I have no idea when it's from, it could be any time in the past eight weeks or so. and it's still true. I am still sleepy, happy, scared and conflicted.
I had a post, it was all about my awesome vacation and how there are things changing in my poly world and I don't know how to handle them. It was about quitting finance class, and wanting to learn to kayak, about needing to swear off of Etsy and Kickstarter and 2048. It was about wanting change but not knowing how to create it, and not wanting anything to change but not having the tools or the ability to keep it from changing.
I'll be okay. I'll be so much better than okay. (points for guessing how many times I had to type and delete qualifiers on that sentence.) But, fuck, post-vacation blues and fear of the unknown suck mightily.
I had a post, it was all about my awesome vacation and how there are things changing in my poly world and I don't know how to handle them. It was about quitting finance class, and wanting to learn to kayak, about needing to swear off of Etsy and Kickstarter and 2048. It was about wanting change but not knowing how to create it, and not wanting anything to change but not having the tools or the ability to keep it from changing.
I'll be okay. I'll be so much better than okay. (points for guessing how many times I had to type and delete qualifiers on that sentence.) But, fuck, post-vacation blues and fear of the unknown suck mightily.
