"The fact has not created in me / A sense of obligation."

Devastating crush remains devastating. Therapy remains hard. My cough syrup still tastes horrible. In other news, water is wet and I don't handle rejection well.

I was sitting on my steps waiting for Purple this afternoon, and all of a sudden my mind started screaming "abort, abort" and I ignored it and then got absolutely run over by unwelcome memories. I've gotten to the point where I understand that however unintentionally, Asshat did me a favor by leaving, but there are still occasional slants of light, times of year, turns of phrase that make me think fondly of him, and those suck all the more.

Talked to Skin and her lovely husband today, and summer plans for moving in continue apace. Filling up the calendar with things (today Purple told me I did awesome things. I was wicked pleased with myself). My dog's cuddly, my husband's awesome and I'm watching an episode of Hawaii Five-O involving swimsuit models.

"The fact has not created in me / A sense of obligation."

Devastating crush remains devastating. Therapy remains hard. My cough syrup still tastes horrible. In other news, water is wet and I don't handle rejection well.

I was sitting on my steps waiting for Purple this afternoon, and all of a sudden my mind started screaming "abort, abort" and I ignored it and then got absolutely run over by unwelcome memories. I've gotten to the point where I understand that however unintentionally, Asshat did me a favor by leaving, but there are still occasional slants of light, times of year, turns of phrase that make me think fondly of him, and those suck all the more.

Talked to Skin and her lovely husband today, and summer plans for moving in continue apace. Filling up the calendar with things (today Purple told me I did awesome things. I was wicked pleased with myself). My dog's cuddly, my husband's awesome and I'm watching an episode of Hawaii Five-O involving swimsuit models.