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this is my whining face
Apr. 14th, 2011 10:03 pmKeeping track of things.
Today I think might be the day that I have decided, yes, I am going to get a preventative bilateral mastectomy with subsequent reconstruction. I think things might be easier if I think about cancer less. I think I might be easier if I think about cancer less often.
There are a lot of people in my life going through a lot of changes. I feel a little stuck, a little mired, and I think I believe the only way out is through. Even though I feel like this is the only story I'm able to tell, I want to find other stories. I want better topics of conversations. I want to be terrified less of the time.
It don't matter the ruse or the
weapons we choose
There is only one thing that can free us
Grace or mercy. I'll take whatever I can find right now.
Today I think might be the day that I have decided, yes, I am going to get a preventative bilateral mastectomy with subsequent reconstruction. I think things might be easier if I think about cancer less. I think I might be easier if I think about cancer less often.
There are a lot of people in my life going through a lot of changes. I feel a little stuck, a little mired, and I think I believe the only way out is through. Even though I feel like this is the only story I'm able to tell, I want to find other stories. I want better topics of conversations. I want to be terrified less of the time.
It don't matter the ruse or the
weapons we choose
There is only one thing that can free us
Grace or mercy. I'll take whatever I can find right now.
