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My gums are infected again, and even though I know it's because of random chance that the surgery site never healed well, I still feel like it's my fault, like I'm somehow dirty for having it happen. But I've got antibiotics, and hopefully it'll stop hurting soon.

I'm trying to think of ways to keep myself more..accountable's not exactly the right word. But I want to keep better track of the books I'm reading and the recipes that are working out for me. And while WW is many things, a smoothly designed interface is nowhere on that list.

I'm feeling a little wistful, a little disorganized, a little disconnected.

Work has posted a job description for a director of education. For those of you playing along at home, this means of a 9 person office, three are staff, five are directors, and one's sort of an adjunct. I've voiced my concerns and now I'm just sick to my stomach about it. I think it'll mean I need to seek other employment, because (as I told my boss) if the ship is sinking, I'd like to get off before it goes under, and the center is already pulled in so many different directions by so many people's whims. And now they've basically driven out two people whom I care a great deal about, and I'm pretty sure I'm next. No one there can accept any sort of culpability for error, so there always needs to be a scapegoat, and I'm pretty sure I'm next. Anyone they're expecting to raise 350K in a year is going to be someone who is used to having staff.

I got to play with an awesome dog last night, every single hold I had at the library came in, and my favorite person just came home. time for an action-packed night of holiday shopping? Or possibly couch-sitting.

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My gums are infected again, and even though I know it's because of random chance that the surgery site never healed well, I still feel like it's my fault, like I'm somehow dirty for having it happen. But I've got antibiotics, and hopefully it'll stop hurting soon.

I'm trying to think of ways to keep myself more..accountable's not exactly the right word. But I want to keep better track of the books I'm reading and the recipes that are working out for me. And while WW is many things, a smoothly designed interface is nowhere on that list.

I'm feeling a little wistful, a little disorganized, a little disconnected.

Work has posted a job description for a director of education. For those of you playing along at home, this means of a 9 person office, three are staff, five are directors, and one's sort of an adjunct. I've voiced my concerns and now I'm just sick to my stomach about it. I think it'll mean I need to seek other employment, because (as I told my boss) if the ship is sinking, I'd like to get off before it goes under, and the center is already pulled in so many different directions by so many people's whims. And now they've basically driven out two people whom I care a great deal about, and I'm pretty sure I'm next. No one there can accept any sort of culpability for error, so there always needs to be a scapegoat, and I'm pretty sure I'm next. Anyone they're expecting to raise 350K in a year is going to be someone who is used to having staff.

I got to play with an awesome dog last night, every single hold I had at the library came in, and my favorite person just came home. time for an action-packed night of holiday shopping? Or possibly couch-sitting.