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Some days are "Get off my damn lawn" days. Today is one of them.

Mind you, I don't have a lawn, and I might not even care if I did. But I'm just plain cross. Some of it, I admit, might be jealousy. Some of it is certainly restlessness. I did just walk down to the corner store to spend 4.75 on a half-gallon of milk and a small thing of orange juice, and while I'm sure it should have helped, it just made me cross at the people who don't shovel their sidewalks.

Part of it has been seething since the Illuminations tour, (even though Chile couldn't make it, I still had a whole lot of fun). But the tour began with some damn hipster asking the bus to wait to take off because their friends would be there any second. I don't think I could ever do that, and I certainly couldn't ever ask someone else to do it. And it must be a little bit awesome to go through life with that sort of assurance of not having to worry about inconveniencing strangers.

I'm also feeling like I should remember to give myself some emotional distance from LJ, particularly when I'm all on edge about the upcoming travel to WI. On the one hand, I love seeing my name and someone saying "Thanks for the card", on the other hand, there's so much about the human experience that I feel like I'm just not understanding and the more I see proof of that, the more estranged I feel. (I'm not being cryptic in hopes of someone asking more, I just can't figure out a non-offensive way to be more specific.)

Add onto that all sorts of angry feelings towards one of my brothers that I just shouldn't voice, and the realization that no one's going to see my holiday decorations because(and?) it's been a gazillion years since anyone came to my house (which is in part totally understandable because it's the holidays, and is in part not true because Mech came over, and in part totally due to my not wanting to make plans until I feel like I've acclimated to working), and that I want to be knitting, but actually knitting is just not holding my interest and you have one crankypanted lady.

Harvard gives me the week between Christmas and New Year's off. I feel I should do something bold and adventurous and social with it. Any suggestions? (My current plans are to try to find a material to line my curtains with to make them slightly more thermal/light blocking and to maybe try to figure out how the kitchenaid mixer pasta attachment works)

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Some days are "Get off my damn lawn" days. Today is one of them.

Mind you, I don't have a lawn, and I might not even care if I did. But I'm just plain cross. Some of it, I admit, might be jealousy. Some of it is certainly restlessness. I did just walk down to the corner store to spend 4.75 on a half-gallon of milk and a small thing of orange juice, and while I'm sure it should have helped, it just made me cross at the people who don't shovel their sidewalks.

Part of it has been seething since the Illuminations tour, (even though Chile couldn't make it, I still had a whole lot of fun). But the tour began with some damn hipster asking the bus to wait to take off because their friends would be there any second. I don't think I could ever do that, and I certainly couldn't ever ask someone else to do it. And it must be a little bit awesome to go through life with that sort of assurance of not having to worry about inconveniencing strangers.

I'm also feeling like I should remember to give myself some emotional distance from LJ, particularly when I'm all on edge about the upcoming travel to WI. On the one hand, I love seeing my name and someone saying "Thanks for the card", on the other hand, there's so much about the human experience that I feel like I'm just not understanding and the more I see proof of that, the more estranged I feel. (I'm not being cryptic in hopes of someone asking more, I just can't figure out a non-offensive way to be more specific.)

Add onto that all sorts of angry feelings towards one of my brothers that I just shouldn't voice, and the realization that no one's going to see my holiday decorations because(and?) it's been a gazillion years since anyone came to my house (which is in part totally understandable because it's the holidays, and is in part not true because Mech came over, and in part totally due to my not wanting to make plans until I feel like I've acclimated to working), and that I want to be knitting, but actually knitting is just not holding my interest and you have one crankypanted lady.

Harvard gives me the week between Christmas and New Year's off. I feel I should do something bold and adventurous and social with it. Any suggestions? (My current plans are to try to find a material to line my curtains with to make them slightly more thermal/light blocking and to maybe try to figure out how the kitchenaid mixer pasta attachment works)