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Aug. 22nd, 2008 09:00 amHow do you fight the impulse to contact someone you probably shouldn't? Not a world-ending sort of shouldn't, just a scabs-best-left-unpicked sort of shouldn't.
Egypt was a big part of one of my seriously drunken periods. It's a story I tell often enough that I remember it because, while it certainly doesn't show me in my best light, it's absolutely hysterical from a distance. He was another one of those people that I wanted more than he wanted me and I struggled desperately with that because on the one hand, I want people to know exactly how much I care for them and on the other hand, I really, really hate losing my dignity. But I'm pretty sure I didn't even have the illusion of dignity, and I honestly don't remember how/why we stopped talking (though I think it might have been something pathetic like he stopped calling, and since I was an other woman, I wasn't supposed to call him).
I'd love for him to have gotten his shit together, and I'd love to know if he has, but I know I should give that particular sleeping dog a wide, wide berth and I certainly will, I just wish the curiosity was a little easier to put aside.
Egypt was a big part of one of my seriously drunken periods. It's a story I tell often enough that I remember it because, while it certainly doesn't show me in my best light, it's absolutely hysterical from a distance. He was another one of those people that I wanted more than he wanted me and I struggled desperately with that because on the one hand, I want people to know exactly how much I care for them and on the other hand, I really, really hate losing my dignity. But I'm pretty sure I didn't even have the illusion of dignity, and I honestly don't remember how/why we stopped talking (though I think it might have been something pathetic like he stopped calling, and since I was an other woman, I wasn't supposed to call him).
I'd love for him to have gotten his shit together, and I'd love to know if he has, but I know I should give that particular sleeping dog a wide, wide berth and I certainly will, I just wish the curiosity was a little easier to put aside.
