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Aug. 21st, 2019 09:20 pm Today I spent four hours waiting for a Lowes delivery that did not come because it had been canceled and no one thought to tell us.
This was in the new home, which mean there was whatever internet my phone could generate and zero furniture. I have tried sitting on both sets of stairs, the floor, and various counters and can confirm none of them are even an hour worth of comfortable. This did however give me an opportunity to investigate everything that might be wrong with the new house in minute detail.
I almost punked out of my volunteer meeting, but went and remembered that I actually do love this shit. Sure, the con stuff is great and interesting and I'm hopefully going to do good work, but presenting the cycle of abuse and explaining different ways it plays out in different relationships? I'm fucking solid on that, and don't feel lost or like an imposter.
I keep thinking about re-running, about language I'd actually want to prepare in advance to run for a position with ConA, about having come to the conA community a couple times and left because I didn't feel like it was a welcoming place and finally being at a point in my life where I could come back and decide instead of leaving, to do my best to make it a more welcoming place. I don't think that addresses my social anxiety too much to be relevant, but instead my current willingnesses.
But who knows? Tomorrow will make a lot of things clearer, I suspect.
This was in the new home, which mean there was whatever internet my phone could generate and zero furniture. I have tried sitting on both sets of stairs, the floor, and various counters and can confirm none of them are even an hour worth of comfortable. This did however give me an opportunity to investigate everything that might be wrong with the new house in minute detail.
I almost punked out of my volunteer meeting, but went and remembered that I actually do love this shit. Sure, the con stuff is great and interesting and I'm hopefully going to do good work, but presenting the cycle of abuse and explaining different ways it plays out in different relationships? I'm fucking solid on that, and don't feel lost or like an imposter.
I keep thinking about re-running, about language I'd actually want to prepare in advance to run for a position with ConA, about having come to the conA community a couple times and left because I didn't feel like it was a welcoming place and finally being at a point in my life where I could come back and decide instead of leaving, to do my best to make it a more welcoming place. I don't think that addresses my social anxiety too much to be relevant, but instead my current willingnesses.
But who knows? Tomorrow will make a lot of things clearer, I suspect.
