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Day five.

Lost my everloving shit this morning.   After a solid afternoon of first Readercon work and then workwork, I'm on the couch between Light and Abundance and a little bit calmer.   Still freaked out, still want to be some sort of productive, my foot still aches and I'm so very tempted to push it, even though I know it'll just take longer to heal.

I don't often indulge in tshirts with words on them, but I've become fascinated by a very poorly organized website with some deeply problematic sentiments (country, cardio, bridesmaids, patriotism, etc) but also some awesome ones.  

Tank tops I would like to indulge in include

*if you want to be my lover you gotta get my consent
*I hate everyone (& pants)
*I'm sarcastic because punching people is frowned upon
*oh no there are people around me
*work hard be fierce take naps
*a smooth sea never made a skillful sailor
*If you can't handle me at my fangirl you don't deserve my feminist scholar
*I'll be a post feminist in the post patriarchy
*I've got 99 problems and society's attitude towards sexual orientation & gender identity covers like 98 of them
*cool story bro now make me an equal member of society
*I've got 99 problems and 93 of them are completely made up scenarios in my head that I'm stressing about for absolutely no logical reason
*I'm not anxious I'm just extremely well-informed on all the things that could go terribly wrong
*My favorite color is no pants
*my summer plans: stay inside because I'm terrified of the outside world
*I've got 99 problems no wait I mean cats I have 99 cats please help me I can't stop
*Can't get out of bed the blankets have accepted me as one of their own + if I leave now I might lose their trust
*ain't no party like a gatsy party because a gatsby party don't stop until at least two people are dead and everyone is disillusioned with the jazz age as a whole
*Sometimes I feel like giving up but then I remember I have a lot of motherfuckers to prove wrong