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Went to New York. Wore a fancy dress. Met captains of industry. Left. Drove to Northampton, stayed there for fifteen minutes, freaked out, drove to Greenfield. Light's napping next to me, we're waiting for Purple and her clan to show up to go to Shelburne Falls.

I miss my dog desperately. I want to bleach the entire house, to see if I can replicate the clean feeling I get when I'm out on this end of the state. I have cleavage-glitter.

I fell asleep on the train, and I think I had a dream where I sorted it all out, where I became primarily emotionally self-sustaining, and of course I forgot the trick as soon as I woke up. I feel like I'm closer on getting a handle on some of why I've been so angry of late, and it's possible it's not super-flattering to me. I don't internalize some things well, and whatever the actual reason, I go from zero to sixty on the bitterness scale once I perceive rejection. I need to learn that it is just as important to recognize the people to whom I am worth the effort as it is to acknowledge there will be people who choose not to make it. For all the people who leave, there are also people who stay.

Also, I have eaten far too many dried peaches.

Hadestown!

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Went to New York. Wore a fancy dress. Met captains of industry. Left. Drove to Northampton, stayed there for fifteen minutes, freaked out, drove to Greenfield. Light's napping next to me, we're waiting for Purple and her clan to show up to go to Shelburne Falls.

I miss my dog desperately. I want to bleach the entire house, to see if I can replicate the clean feeling I get when I'm out on this end of the state. I have cleavage-glitter.

I fell asleep on the train, and I think I had a dream where I sorted it all out, where I became primarily emotionally self-sustaining, and of course I forgot the trick as soon as I woke up. I feel like I'm closer on getting a handle on some of why I've been so angry of late, and it's possible it's not super-flattering to me. I don't internalize some things well, and whatever the actual reason, I go from zero to sixty on the bitterness scale once I perceive rejection. I need to learn that it is just as important to recognize the people to whom I am worth the effort as it is to acknowledge there will be people who choose not to make it. For all the people who leave, there are also people who stay.

Also, I have eaten far too many dried peaches.

Hadestown!