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Well, the first bit of the mission that is this trip has been accomplished.

I'm in a hotel in New Jersey, and earlier today, I stopped by the campus upon which I attended college. It was 10am on a Saturday morning, possibly during reading week so the campus was pretty much entirely deserted, except for noises from the music building and some students shuffling into the dining hall.

I did better than I expected. The approach was somewhat nervewracking, but once I actually arrived, I calmed a little bit and showed Light many of the stages upon which I played out some seriously uncomfortable scenes. Fortunately, the campus was actually as beautiful as I remember it being, and it felt a little bit like the wonder of seeing it for the first time. The only part that gave pause was the bells, the first time they chimed the quarter hour I felt a little bit like I had been punched in the gut.

An uncomfortable lunch in a new jersey diner with friends of a friend, and now I'm in the hotel, watching something bad on tv (as one does in hotels) and waiting to put on fancy clothes for the rehearsal dinner tonight. For now, however, I will play facebook boggle.

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Well, the first bit of the mission that is this trip has been accomplished.

I'm in a hotel in New Jersey, and earlier today, I stopped by the campus upon which I attended college. It was 10am on a Saturday morning, possibly during reading week so the campus was pretty much entirely deserted, except for noises from the music building and some students shuffling into the dining hall.

I did better than I expected. The approach was somewhat nervewracking, but once I actually arrived, I calmed a little bit and showed Light many of the stages upon which I played out some seriously uncomfortable scenes. Fortunately, the campus was actually as beautiful as I remember it being, and it felt a little bit like the wonder of seeing it for the first time. The only part that gave pause was the bells, the first time they chimed the quarter hour I felt a little bit like I had been punched in the gut.

An uncomfortable lunch in a new jersey diner with friends of a friend, and now I'm in the hotel, watching something bad on tv (as one does in hotels) and waiting to put on fancy clothes for the rehearsal dinner tonight. For now, however, I will play facebook boggle.

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I have discovered that I have the desire to be a bridesmaid. I don't particularly suspect this is going to be a desire which gets filled, but it was (mostly) one I was previously unaware of. I thought my issue with not being a part of the wedding party at Saint and Media's wedding was about it being Saint and Media's wedding, but there's a chance that it's that I feel like I am not the kind of friend who gets to do things Like That, and that makes me feel uncomfortable and unworthy.

Huh. Mopey train time, I guess.

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I have discovered that I have the desire to be a bridesmaid. I don't particularly suspect this is going to be a desire which gets filled, but it was (mostly) one I was previously unaware of. I thought my issue with not being a part of the wedding party at Saint and Media's wedding was about it being Saint and Media's wedding, but there's a chance that it's that I feel like I am not the kind of friend who gets to do things Like That, and that makes me feel uncomfortable and unworthy.

Huh. Mopey train time, I guess.