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i binged at the bookstore and failed entirely to try and get new sandals or talk to a tattoo artist. (i need a new one. Any suggestions? also, i need to find a place in northampton to rent bicycles for this weekend for Junkyard and B apparently, any hints, internet?)

There are things that make me sick to think on, personal things, and so i'm trying not to think about them at all, and i'm struggling, hard, with the difference between being too much like my mother and just ignoring the things i don't want to think about and what actually might just be a healthy reaction to learning to live with anxiety, learning to put it a little bit further from me, rather than wallowing in it.

I'm netflixing the first disc of Freaks and Geeks. Light's ordered me some smaller prints to go on each side of the big one above the couch, the dentist went well, Media's face is all over gamespot, i made muhummarah for dinner, having Unexpected over was awesome. I have adorable cats. Tomorrow night, i'm making parsnip soup. the day after that Junkyard shows up and i feed him yummy food.

I'm learning how to do this, i really really am.

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i binged at the bookstore and failed entirely to try and get new sandals or talk to a tattoo artist. (i need a new one. Any suggestions? also, i need to find a place in northampton to rent bicycles for this weekend for Junkyard and B apparently, any hints, internet?)

There are things that make me sick to think on, personal things, and so i'm trying not to think about them at all, and i'm struggling, hard, with the difference between being too much like my mother and just ignoring the things i don't want to think about and what actually might just be a healthy reaction to learning to live with anxiety, learning to put it a little bit further from me, rather than wallowing in it.

I'm netflixing the first disc of Freaks and Geeks. Light's ordered me some smaller prints to go on each side of the big one above the couch, the dentist went well, Media's face is all over gamespot, i made muhummarah for dinner, having Unexpected over was awesome. I have adorable cats. Tomorrow night, i'm making parsnip soup. the day after that Junkyard shows up and i feed him yummy food.

I'm learning how to do this, i really really am.