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cat too static-ful to pet without making both of us wince, but she headbutts me for love anyway, a signed copy of Mirror, Mirror from the used bookstore, fabulous conversation with cherished and peppermint tea and a giant cookie, finally getting to talk to light last night for some time, and they all soothe, in different ways.

cherished reminds me i'm likable, just like i am. you don't need to be an old friend or a lover or a little brother. i don't need to temper my personality, or prove myself. i can just be. and it feels wonderful.

and i tried to explain, the crying isn't always about the leaving. it's about the transition, it's about how hard it is for me to believe in the future, the intangible. it's about how out of control these emotions make me feel, how frustrated.

but my cat isn't dead, and light comes back tomorrow and i get to see the nields fullband on saturday, and there are things to count the days until. and each day has some moment that makes it good.

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cat too static-ful to pet without making both of us wince, but she headbutts me for love anyway, a signed copy of Mirror, Mirror from the used bookstore, fabulous conversation with cherished and peppermint tea and a giant cookie, finally getting to talk to light last night for some time, and they all soothe, in different ways.

cherished reminds me i'm likable, just like i am. you don't need to be an old friend or a lover or a little brother. i don't need to temper my personality, or prove myself. i can just be. and it feels wonderful.

and i tried to explain, the crying isn't always about the leaving. it's about the transition, it's about how hard it is for me to believe in the future, the intangible. it's about how out of control these emotions make me feel, how frustrated.

but my cat isn't dead, and light comes back tomorrow and i get to see the nields fullband on saturday, and there are things to count the days until. and each day has some moment that makes it good.